so i have an interesting shopping list. a list of things i’d like to get my hands on, but they would not be easy, as most of them are illegal in the united states. weird how one thing can be legal in one region of the world yet illegal in another. but that’s an aside. back to the matter at hand. my wish list is, as follows:
- mescaline : aldous huxley and hunter s. thompson both describe experiences that i need to live through to understand.
- peyote : i must have my jim morrison desert hallucination experience.
- absinthe : the first stuff i had was the ‘beginners’ version. i gotta try the more potent stuff.
- psilocybin mushrooms : tried them once, they were enough fun to want to try again. these will be easier to get my hands on than anything.
i think that’s about it for now. why oh why do i want these things? well, as i have said before, i am interested in altered states. hallucinogenic drugs are an excellent way to plunge oneself into an altered state. if a, then b. logic is amazing this way. or you can take aldous huxley’s perspective:
“If we could sniff or swallow something that would, for five or six hours each day, abolish our solitude as individuals, atone us with our fellows in a glowing exaltation of affection and make life in all its aspects seem not only worth living, but divinely beautiful and significant, and if this heavenly, world-transfiguring drug were of such a kind that we could wake up next morning with a clear head and an undamaged constitution-then, it seems to me, all our problems (and not merely the one small problem of discovering a novel pleasure) would be wholly solved and earth would become paradise.”
or even hunter s. thompson’s famous point of view:
“I hate to advocate drugs, alcohol, violence or insanity to anyone, but they’ve always worked for me.”
my opinion, to continue, is this: life is short. i find drugs to be an interesting experience. life is experience. end of story.
i turned in my two weeks notice yesterday. my last working day is friday september 2, 2005.
as this chapter closes, one begins anew…