Monthly Archives: September 2005

Life is Good

Ah, yes. I’ve been waiting a long goddamned time to be able to use that title for one of my blogs. Well, it’s not like I’ve been sitting around saying, “Sooner or later, I’ll get to title a blog entry with ‘Life is Good,'” but it’s more the sentiment of waiting for the wheel of karma to come back around to a more positive light. Or something like that.

So, what’s the big deal, you ask? What the hell could be so friggin’ different as to make your life SO much better now than it was in the recent past? Well, I’ll tell you. Just about everything can change, man. And it’s as the Chinese proverb goes, “The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.” If I’m gonna play the analogy game, then, what, per se, was my “single step,” dear reader? Ah, yes… I could be so cliché as to discuss how the single step was more of a gigantic leap, thereby stealing more quotes from those much wiser than a lowly drug fiend as I, but I’m not gonna do it. Anyhow, I digress. The step was changing jobs. I actually didn’t comprehend how terrifying making that change would be. It hit me the weekend after my first week at the new job, and it’s not because my first week was bad, no, on the contrary, it was fantastic. It’s just that the mind numbing fear of leaving the familiar for the unknown crept up on me and smacked me across the head in a jolt so fierce that I just about lost it.

Life’s a funny thing. It will catch up with you, no matter what. However, it was a good thing, for I had a stunning revelation and am much the better, albeit none the wiser, for it. But I’ll get into all that at some other juncture. Suffice it to say, I took a chance, made a change, and started a job at a new company. I am very pleased with the change in my work life. I work hard, but the benefits are endless. I am much more challenged by my work, and I am given significantly more freedom in my decision-making than I was at my previous job. It was quite a shock to my system– writing code my second week of work– and not even remembering how to start a new .cpp file because I simply had not done it in SO long. Yeah. So, I’m sure that only makes sense to my fellow programmers, but the idea is that, essentially, I was always working in old things before. Now I have a chance to create new things. And, if I see that some old way of doing things completely and utterly sucks, I can change it. So I suppose it’s a bit less junior than my last job, and with that comes added responsibility and complexity. But oh how I love it.

Busy, Happy Bee

Well, as you can tell by the lack of updates, I’ve been very busy lately. I started my new job 2 weeks ago, and I am very happy with it. I’ve been working hard, so I’ve been really tired at night. I had a very profound revelation last week, and I’ve found my faith again. I also had a chance encounter with someone from my past… I feel so very blessed to have run into him again. I only hope that I don’t mess things up this time. He’s the real deal.

Well, I have lots to do to prepare for this week. I just wanted to update my readers– let you know that I am doing very well, and I feel like things are finally turning around for me… I’m finally finding my way after being lost for quite some time. Best wishes, and I hope to have time this week to explain a bit more about all the good things happening in my life.

new painting posted

i finally got a digital image of the painting i gave to my parents. you can see it at
it’s untitled 04. they actually have it hanging the other way round, which is cool, too. i have another piece that’s almost finished. i’ll be posting it soon!