Dancing with (Talking to) Myself?

Argh. I’m back to where I’ve been before… wondering whether it’s even worthwhile to post my random thoughts and questions to this little corner of the web. You see, I do have an offline electronic journal, as well as an offline paper journal… and I am more forthright and straightforward in those journals for obvious reasons… not wanting to lay it all out here and such. However, would that be preferable? Just put it all out there?

Because all these thoughts I post at random leave me feeling much like Billy Idol, although I am not dancing with myself but talking (typing) to myself. I dunno what to do from this point. Surely, I know that at least *someone* reads my ramblings… because I have the webstats to prove it. However, I do hope to elicit responses from some of my posts… Meh. I dunno. Just another rambling post to get something off my chest, I suppose. I’m just at the point now where I’m wondering whether any of it is even worthwhile. Perhaps I am just overanalyzing… but it’s another stream of consciousness meant to do something, even if it’s wrong, I suppose.

One thought on “Dancing with (Talking to) Myself?

  1. I understand the feeling of “Is it really worth it…does any of this really help”. I used to write a lot. At the time, I needed to…there was a lot bottled up inside that needed to come out because I really didn’t have anyone to tell it to.

    Then I finally started reading all of the stuff I had been writing for the many years I had been scribbling my thoughts on random pieces of paper and realized it was all a bunch of ugly shit that I had inside of me. I came to a point when it felt good to not fucking think about any of it any more. My mental schema started to shift.

    It’s now been several years since I’ve written anything at all. In fact…this is the first thing I’ve probably written in 4 to 5 years…may sound like a load of shit but it’s true. I’m thinking about picking up the pen and paper again. Sometimes it’s a good activity to partake in. Sometimes it’s a bad one. And sometimes it just plain gets fucking old rehashing the same old shit over and over again.

    Anyways…I’m one of those anonymous visitors to your site. I’d hate to see you stop posting…but I’d understand.

    How’s that for a rant… 😉

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