Category Archives: Recovery

Gratitude

I’m grateful for 81 days of continuous sobriety. I’m grateful that it’s been 112 days since I last took an antidepressant or mood stabiliser AND that my depression has finally lifted. More than anything, right now I’m grateful for the wonderful challenges and amazing difficulties that I’ve been through and am presently in the midst of navigating. It may sound strange to be thankful for hard times, and I was a bit surprised when the words, “thank you for my difficulties” came across my tongue in prayer last week, but I’m grateful for this gratitude.

It’s through these difficulties that I grow. It’s the financial challenges that I’m struggling with right now that humble me and force me to reach out and say, “I need help.”  Even in the middle of the storm, even with everything seemingly falling apart all around me, I’ve remained centred. That’s all faith. That’s all God. That’s all a Power greater than myself. Through this and my connection with my Higher Power, I’ve found stores of strength and grace that I never thought myself possible of wielding. I’ve encountered this gorgeous warrior of a woman — and she’s me! I’m not just becoming great; I am great… provided that I stay deeply connected to the Power that fuels me.

I’m grateful for the Hell I’ve endured. I’m open to the lessons I’ve yet to learn. I’m on fire and excited about life. Let’s get to it!

I love therapy to this day: pay somebody just to not run screaming from the room. This is the best! And I can talk about anything I want. I’m not making fun. I love therapy, and I’m grateful I had it, but it didn’t stop me from drinking, guys. Therapy won’t stop you from drinking if you’re the real McCoy, the ‘genetically predisposed alcoholic.’ Bill Wilson uses that term, not Chris Raymer. Bill Wilson says, ‘But what about the real alcoholic?’ Introduce yourself from the podium like that sometime and watch them line up after to take inventory. ‘What do you mean? You think you’re special?’ ‘Probably.’”

—Chris R., from his Oct. 24, 2013 talk at We Are Not A Glum Lot Big Book Study in Dunwoody, GA

I’m what they call a ‘Big Book Enthusiast.’

I heard somebody say that the other day, and I said, ‘I’m gonna steal that and use it forever and ever.’ I always call myself a ‘Big Book Thumper,’ ya know, and it always sounds so derogatory. It’s just — I’m just excited about the work.”

—Chris R., from his Oct. 24, 2013 talk at We Are Not A Glum Lot Big Book Study in Dunwoody, GA

I’m 70 days sober and proud to rank myself among the oft-misunderstood motley crew of  ‘Big Book Enthusiasts.’ 

Let’s get busy living.

And we have ceased fighting anything or anyone— even alcohol. For by this time sanity will have returned. We will seldom be interested in liquor. If tempted, we recoil from it as from a hot flame.”

Big Book p. 84