Sonnet—To Science by Edgar Allan Poe

Science! true daughter of Old Time thou art!
    Who alterest all things with thy peering eyes.
Why preyest thou thus upon the poet’s heart,
    Vulture, whose wings are dull realities?
How should he love thee? or how deem thee wise,
   Who wouldst not leave him in his wandering
To seek for treasure in the jewelled skies,
   Albeit he soared with an undaunted wing?
Hast thou not dragged Diana from her car,
   And driven the Hamadryad from the wood
To seek a shelter in some happier star?
   Hast thou not torn the Naiad from her flood,
The Elfin from the green grass, and from me
The summer dream beneath the tamarind tree?

Life is hard. Bacon makes it better.

Well-behaved* women seldom make history.”

—Laurel Thatcher Ulrich

*What I find humorous is that folks will like, favourite, re-tweet, & otherwise share this sentiment with ringing endorsements, then they’ll abruptly unfollow/defriend me when I misbehave.

Ah, Alanis, that is what we accurately deem ‘ironic.’

Gratitude

I’m grateful for 81 days of continuous sobriety. I’m grateful that it’s been 112 days since I last took an antidepressant or mood stabiliser AND that my depression has finally lifted. More than anything, right now I’m grateful for the wonderful challenges and amazing difficulties that I’ve been through and am presently in the midst of navigating. It may sound strange to be thankful for hard times, and I was a bit surprised when the words, “thank you for my difficulties” came across my tongue in prayer last week, but I’m grateful for this gratitude.

It’s through these difficulties that I grow. It’s the financial challenges that I’m struggling with right now that humble me and force me to reach out and say, “I need help.”  Even in the middle of the storm, even with everything seemingly falling apart all around me, I’ve remained centred. That’s all faith. That’s all God. That’s all a Power greater than myself. Through this and my connection with my Higher Power, I’ve found stores of strength and grace that I never thought myself possible of wielding. I’ve encountered this gorgeous warrior of a woman — and she’s me! I’m not just becoming great; I am great… provided that I stay deeply connected to the Power that fuels me.

I’m grateful for the Hell I’ve endured. I’m open to the lessons I’ve yet to learn. I’m on fire and excited about life. Let’s get to it!

Final Friday the 13th of 2013

108 days free from psych meds. 78 days of continuous sobriety.  I’m not endorsing discontinuation of meds, not by any means, but for me, it took the former to promote the latter. However, I do feel like I was overmedicated.

While we’re talking milestones, check this out: on 12.13.2003, I graduated from one of the finest institutions in the South, The Georgia Institute of Technology with my Bachelor’s of Science in Computer Science with Highest Honour.

That’s right! Today’s the 10 year anniversary of my college graduation. What a long, strange, wonderful trip it’s been.  I’ve always wanted to return to higher ed, but the winding road of my life hasn’t quite led me back there yet. I’ve actually started looking at PhD programs in Neuroscience… and, armed with a burgeoning clarity of mind and reinvigorated sense of self, this dream may finally have wings.

Happy Friday the 13th, y’all! DREAM BIG!

feel what I feel
within myself — that is trying to
become aware of it
also what I feel in others
not being ashamed of my feeling, thoughts — or ideas

realize the thing that
they are –

— Marilyn Monroe

See more poems & read the full article “Marilyn Monroe’s Unpublished Poems: The Complex Private Person Behind the Public Persona” (from brainpickings.org).

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Who is the Fool?

You Don’t Understand Me

Who is the fool, the fool, the fool that you are fooling?

Fool me once? Shame on you. Fool me twice? Shame on me. Fool me three times? Fool, please. I’m not buying what you’re selling.

The only way I’ve found to ensure that I consistently take multi-vitamins and supplements is to buy them as gummies. Further evidence of my refusal to grow up— which, by the way, is grossly overrated.

I believe that one defines oneself by reinvention. To not be like your parents. To not be like your friends. To be yourself. To cut yourself out of stone.”

—Henry Rollins